Jae! For you......

Oh, Jae *sigh*

My eyes are hazy, cloudy, and dark.

A storm came.

The tears they fall like rain.

Will my eyes ever be clear again?

Just once, I’d like to walk with you.

Until that day comes,

The sun will never be as bright.


Saranghae<3

To Park Jaebeom......

Let me start out by writing this. I'm a 38 year old woman. I'm married with 3 kids (2 boys, ages 14 and 12) and one little girl that will be 4. I've been married for 16 years. I've been around for a long time. Even though, I would be considered an "ahjumma" by some, this "ahjumma" has the heart and spirit of any 18-20 year old. Just call me "Noona" or "Unni," please.

In the past 6 months, I have come to love a boygroup called 2PM. I'll admit to thinking of myself as a member of HOTTEST (the fans of 2PM). Don't get me wrong, I still love my SuJu, too.

This past week has been a freakin' unrealistic nightmare for Jaebeom, leader of the boyband 2PM. As most of you know, Anti-netizens invaded Jae's personal life and found OLD responses to a friend's myspace account. I won't lie. The words were harsh, cruel, and maybe unjust. Koreans are "gay". Korea is "whack". And some other not-so-nice words, that at this moment, I can't remember because my mind is filled with sadness.

Last night, before going to bed, someone posted that Jae had quit the band. In the back of my mind, I wondered, but just let it go thinking it was just a joke. To my surprise, this morning, I find that that post was indeed true. And to my amazement, tears rolled down my face, my chest got tight, and the next thing I knew I was sobbing. And right now, the tears are still etching lines down my face........

I haven't felt this pain since the day, when I was a teenager, I found out that Duran Duran was splitting up. That was more than 20 years ago.

So how do I go about my day? I'm afraid to listen to my iPod and having to hear Jaebeom's voice rapping to Again & Again or 10 out of 10. I can't watch the videos. I'm sick. My heart is broken to pieces.

Now, here are my personal views on the situation.............

This has been said time and time and time again. He was a teenager when he expressed his views at that time. He was alone (no family, no friends, no culture, no language). He was training hours upon hours each day, exhausted day by day. To be placed in a foreign country, with no understanding, and hormones that were raging, what did anyone expect to come out of a frustrated kid's mouth?

So, there are these Anti-netizens who are fully against 2PM, find these hateful words and spread the "gospel" of hatred and bigotry throughout Korea, Asia, and everywhere anyone has a computer can read them. The "gospel" then comes around to the Korean media and a backlash of the greatest kind comes around and whips Jaebeom and 2PM in the butt. Jae apologizes to the fullest extent. And I truly believe he was sorry to the infinity power. You can see through old show and the most recent ones how his personality had changed over the years. Even the members of the group mentioned how Jae was very closed off at the beginning but as time went, he became more open and outgoing. You know the saying..."Time heals all wounds". I really believe that happened to Jae. But now, why won't the Anti-netizens let up, and let "time heal their wounds?"

Jae quit, in MY opinion, not for the sake of the Antis, but the sake of the members of 2PM. I truly think he believes that cutting himself off will heal the groups troubles. But instead, I think this is worse. Instead of cutting out the disease, find a cure first. If all else fails, then decide to have "surgery" to remove yourself.

These Antis have truly, wholeheartedly made every word that Jae said over 4 years ago....TRUE. The worst part out of the whole scenario....to make a petition to have him commit suicide. That is absurd. Making themselves into a god, and forcing Jae to decide his fate.

I truly hope that since Jae is coming HOME, that he can rest, cry, hold his family....and revive himself and that one day he will come back to 2PM. That once this whole fiasco is done and buried, he can regain what he once lost.

To Jae,

As a mom, a fan, and an "ahjumma", please have hope and live. You are surrounded by fans who love and support you.

As a mother of 2 boys, I feel strongly to just give you a great big hug. I can understand the worries your family, and especially your mom, are feeling right now.

I just hope that this is a mini-vacation for you. Rest, yes rest and ease you heart and mind. Pray to our God to ease your heavy burden. Right now, I'm sure his "phone" lines are being slammed by HOTTESTS around the world over.

I truly like you as a person. You stood up well. You admitted your faults and apologized. To me, that makes you a worthy man. You are truly honorable so please stand proud and hold your head up high. There is no shame for being human.

To the members of 2PM,

You all are bunch of wonderful guys, loved the world over. Don't lose hope. We stand behind you.

Missing in action..............

......well, not really. LOL! I've decided to post current, on-going, or recent programs, dramas, and/or movies. I not only blog about dramas, I read others as well. Why review dramas and movies that have been reviewed a thousand times....especially those that were made before 2007? I will blog about programs that are obsolete and that I have seen or luckily found. It's time consuming to write about things or interests that have been reviewed to the ground. Yes, I have my personal views on some dramas that might be of interest to someone else....but sometimes they are identical to others also. So..................

........anyway. What I'm watching and planning on reviewing:

City Hall~so far.....insanely hysterical and romantic
Romance Zero~sweet
Black and White~is still ongoing but will review it after this post. Why? You'll find out.
That Fool~started off good..........
Ghost Friends~another sweet Japanese drama
Tokyo Ghost Trip~eye candy galore
Prince of Tennis~so far, so good
Shining Inheritance~it's good but I think they have added toooooo many episodes, should only be an 18 or 20 episode drama....not 26.
Sons of Sol Pharmacy House~love this family drama so far.
Atashinchi no Danshi~didn't think I'd like it, but it's great

These are the only ones I could think off the top of my head.....so I might have forgotten a few. I watch soooooooo many a day that I do get befuzzled........sometimes.

OMG! A new discovery in the "middle of nowhere" Texas!

Today, just another Saturday. No biggie. I ran 4.5 miles (trust me people, this is by far my worst. I used to run 10-12 miles every other day until I hurt my back.) I watched the newest episode of Calling Love and When It's At Night. I finished off the second time watching Miss Kim Makes A Million. I cleaned house (boring!!). Then after a while decided to go down to the local Asian market we have here. (Just so's y'all know. We are a military family. And every town we live in is obviously military. And where there is military town, there are gobs and gobs of Koreans and Germans and Puerto Ricans) So we head on down to the O-Mart (I'm assuming the "O" stands for Oriental), we grab a cart, and as we walk by the front I couldn't believe my eyes. I thought my glasses were playing tricks on me. No! It couldn't be! But it was........

.......a SUPER JUNIOR CD! I almost passed out from sheer joy. But I won't stop there. There was more eyecandy. BIG BANG AND RAIN!!!!! (Okay, they had SNSD and the WonderGirls...but they don't "trip my trigger".) So, I stood there GAWKING. My son about gave up on me. I swear he rolled his eyes at me. I didn't know what to get. But then, yet, I did. I was not going to leave that store without 13 hotties in my hands. LOL! So there I stood, lovingly holding SUPER JUNIOR's 3rd album. If there weren't people watching, I probably would have been kissing every face on the cover. LOL! I was so happy to find this treasure. Having been "borrowing" music from a site I won't name, is how I had been getting my music fix. So now, when I go back to O-Mart, next on my list........will be RAIN! (I wished they had Se7en!)

Now if they would sell Asain dramas.....life would be REAL GOOD!

*Yeah, I could get this all online....but why the hell would I want to pay the insane shipping charges?*

Withdrawal

I'm really having a rough time right now. I've watched all the Asian dramas I can watch. I've watched repeats upon repeats of my favorites. I guess at this moment every fansubber on the face of the planet is taking down time. I know there are some dramas I haven't watched. Mainly because they don't seem to my liking or they've been overdone (ex. Hana Yori Dango...I'm sure the Korean version is great but there is only so much I can stand so I have forgone that drama.....Yeah, I'm not following that beaten path and following my own.)

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is.....I'm having withdrawal symptoms. I start getting flutters in my stomach, I can't stay focused, I search the internet on a constant basis looking for something to appease me, and now I'm getting depressed. And, ya know, it's the Korean "drugs" I'm wanting more and more. LOL! I think I've watched every episode that every member of Super Junior has put out. I'm about to cruise the net for SS501 (never heard their music before, will give them a try), 2AM (another I've never heard), and I might do some Epik High (LOL! Sounds like the drug I'm needing. Oh, I crack myself up.)

I've just started watching variety shows that I'd probably never have given anther thought too. Star Golden Bell has become addictive. Actually, scary addictive. 2Days 1Night is hilarious...my Thursdays revolve around that one. If I don't have it, my day isn't right. Then there is Family Outing...OMG! If you don't like Korean language or shows, this one could change your mind. LOL! The show makes me so freakin' happy. I love Lee Chun-Hee. You get to see how funny one culture can be. The Koreans have a strange funny bone. But it's nice. Maybe it's the differential to my mundane life. The comedy, the games, the familial backdrop leaves you excited for the next episode. (Yeah, another show that gives me freakin' withdrawl. Ottoke?)

So what do I do? I've never been on youtube as much as I have this week. It's terrifying. I'm even to the point that I'm wanting to go to our local Asian market and buy out the Jjangjangmyun, Ramyun, kimbap, chapchae and Hite beer (and I don't even drink..LOL!)

Ya know what? I think I need a new "drug"..........

*....and no people, I'm not a drug addict. Read BETWEEN the lines.*

SUPER JUNIOR!!!

I thought and thought and thought last night about this post. I never would have thought the day would come that I would say this.....I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR! Yeah, me, love Super Junior. Yeah, right? It's true.

After watching Bad Family with Heechul, I did web searches on him. I found Good Daddy. It's a reality TV series about 5 men who raise a young daughter. The men being 5 celebrities. One of the men is Hongki from FT. Island. Aye Carumba! Fell in love with that show. I will say my love for Heechul waivered. He was very stuck up and assinine in the show. I wasn't sure if it was for viewership purposes or if that was really his true personality. Okay, my curiosity got the better of me. I was enthralled with him even more. I did another search on Heechul and came across another reality series called Band of Brothers. This time it was 4 celebrities that form a band. One of the other band members besides Heechul....was Kangin (another group mate of Heechul's in Super Junior). Okay, after watching this...found out about The Trax. They are a Korean hard rock band. Two of the members were also in the Band of Brothers.

After all this, my curiosity was still not appeased and really hoping to find something to make Heechul not look like an asshole. After all the searching, I obviously came across lots and mean TONS of stuff on Super Junior. So much that I got a headache going through most of it. But oh lucky me! I came across their new video "Sorry, Sorry". Holy Mary, Mother of God! I can't get this freakin' song out of my head. I go to sleep with it and wake up with it. I have visions of Super Junior running amuck through my head. Thirteen cutie patooties of testosterone. Aiiiiish! Yes, those of you who have no clue who Super Junior are. This is a boy group of 13. Yes, I will post a picture of all 13. I do have my favorites. I won't go on and on about those favorites because I don't have enough time or space in my blog to gush about them. I will say who they are are though......1. Han Geng 2. Si Won 3. Hee Chul 4. Dong Hae 5.Ryeo Wook 6.Kang In 7. Sung Min 8. Yee Sung 9. Ki Bum 10. Kyu Hyun 11. Lee Teuk 12. Eun Hyuk 13. Shin Dong. In that order at this moment. Order might change....who knows. *shrugs*

I know you wonder. Did I find anything on Heechul that eliminated him from being an asshole? Not really. But have decided that is just him and his personality. Doesn't mean he's a jerk....maybe that is just how he is in front of a camera. I did thought find a nice story on the group on youtube made by a girl from China. Some nice person subbed the Chinese into Korean then into English. Everything that was said were quotes from interviews and radio shows of Super Junior. All the comments said they cried. I was like "whatever". I don't think I'll cry. Well, after the second video I broke down. Not a sobbing gush but tears strolled down my cheeks. *sigh* This was such a sweet story even though the title of the videos were called Super Junior Sad Story.



This is just the first of 8. You'll have to find the rest for yourselves. This story, the interviews, everything made me realize that Han Geng is probably the most sweetest guy out of the group. Total marriage material. *sigh*

I changed my mind. I won't post individual pictures. I'll be at my computer all day. LOL!



This the latest picture from their new album that just came out this month...."Sorry, Sorry".